Don’t you wish sometimes life came with a remote control? Something that would allow you to rewind to those amazing moments in life that brought the best out of you, those moments you could replay eternally? Or on the contrary, fast forward through those moments that suck the life out of you? Those dark moments you wish you could erase?
And yes, I’ve heard and I know how all the sayings go “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”, or “Sometimes you need those bad days to help you appreciate the good days.” I’ve heard them all, and I’ve been a true believer in all of these motivational philosophies or mindset. But as we speak, I’m finding it hard to accept them and live by them.
You might be guessing correctly, I am at one of those moments in life you wish you could rewind or fast forward, and that moment is described with one single word, CANCER. This one single word has not only made me shed tears at night, question everything about life, feel anger, frustration and an array of so many other things, it is also the one thing that almost kept me from joining this challenge. I thought, “Why should I join? The content of my blog will be so depressive.” But then a friend I hold close to my heart shared her post, for a split second I thought about how this would be the perfect opportunity to just vent and share the ups and downs of life. For one split second I thought about how maybe this one new adventure would help me or force me to cope with this or see beyond it.
So I’ll try my best to share from my heart, to write what’s roaming this twisted mind of mine, and maybe just maybe, this might help me deal with the reality that unfortunately life does not come with a remote control.