Last Minute Change of Mind

I can’t believe it’s been a year since I decided to get out of my comfort zone and try this slice of life challenge. A year ago when I was introduced to it by my literacy coach (who we greatly miss at school) I doubted my abilities to be able to do it for two different reasons. One, I have never considered myself to be a “good” writer, not because of lack of ideas, but rather because of a lack of craft. Yet this same reason to doubt was the one that pushed me to join. I hoped to get to read and be inspired by other people’s posts and journeys. Two, I was going through what has been so far the most difficult and saddest moment in my life. I wasn’t sure I wanted to put out there all of my real thoughts and feelings, for they were mostly of sadness, anger, uncertainty, and pain. I was constantly sad and confused and I wanted to be more positive in my writing. I also wasn’t sure if I would have the time and energy to write. Yet, I tried to see it as a therapeutical time, and even though I didn’t get to write everyday, I did write some powerful posts that I have been able to re read and reflect on. Two days ago I happened to read the first post I wrote. It brought me to tears, and even though I am still trying to cope and adjust, it has made me realize that I am strong and that I’ve overcome one of the hardest losses, losing your mom.

Two days ago, as I re-read all of the posts, I decided I wasn’t going to do it. But then today, I got email notifications of new posts of the those who inspired me and I got to read last year, and by reading them I was reminded that I’m not alone in this, that many of us still doubt wether we will have ideas to write about, wether it will be a good writing piece or whether we will have the time and energy. Yet here we all are, taking risks again and willing to be honest and brave.

3 thoughts on “Last Minute Change of Mind

  1. Losing a parent is probably one of the toughest things anyone has to deal with. So, while I’m sorry you looked back and cried, I am pleased you decided to join us again this year. As you know, nothing has to be polished and perfect. It just has to be on the page, posted, and shared. That’s it.
    Here’s to March!

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  2. Thank you for sharing your hard experiences and I admire your courage to get out of your comfort zone as you said. I am a new slicer too and it has taken me so long to actually start it because of my fear and a lack of my confidence as a writer. I look forward to reading your stories this month. We can do it!

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    1. I am so glad you didn’t let fear or self doubt keep you from joining. This first step is already a huge one 🙂 one day at a time. We can do this!

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